"This is a 2 a.m. piece"

My spirit is entirely broken; I doubt I'm getting any sleep tonight. I worked for so long to finally establish my own set of moralities and ideologies and try to find exactly what I did believe in after following every person that was in my life for so fucking long and when I finally do start piecing it together its not the appropriate ideal. I've tried for too fucking long to break from the pack, I'm sorry if i offend but I'm standing behind the conclusions that I've come to. 

I've been a follower all my life and I'm done with it.