Jersey Apresh

I don't care how boring it is around here sometimes, or how trapped I feel, I really love New Jersey. I absolutely cannot wait until I move down to Stockton and am by the shore and can really enjoy all the good parts of Jersey and not just the shitty rural area up here. I've also decided that I am definitely getting a Jersey tattoo, call me cheesy. 

I'm starting to realize how much I suck. I drove all my friends away, and the friends I do have still aren't as close as I wish they were. Everyone in my life has always got thrown to the back burner and I am so lucky that the friends that have stuck around for forever are still here. Seriously guys, if anyone still creeps this shit, I do not know what I would do without you and I promise this summer we're going to hang out a lot more then we have been. I don't like being such an isolate, its terrible. (I also would like to especially mention Dani and Alissa, pretty much the only two girls that have always always been there for me. I totally love you guys).

I'm also starting to realize how awful I am at maintaining friendships. Anyone that I've been really close to I have pushed away. Its not them; I don't think its been them for a long time. I may have been fucked over as a kid, but the last few friends as of recent that I've pushed away are all my fault and I can't blame anyone else. I'm so sorry, and I honestly miss all the different aspects of the friends that I have lost.

I am certainly going to make the summer of 2009 amazing.