Posi

Lately I've been trying so hard to stay positive, but as I come to realize I'm leaving in the fall, I'm noticing my temper is going straight to hell with my entire family. I don't mean to, my mom and dad definitely don't deserve it. My sister, on the other hand, oh my god. I guess when I was going through my teenage shit, I was as selfish and terrible as she is, but I am very much so on the edge of freaking out. I don't deserve to deal with her bullshit, and neither does the rest of my family. You're in 8th grade, your life is not going to end if you don't have a boyfriend. I don't care what in your life is so important, you don't have to treat the world like shit.

I want to stay positive. This semester is ending very soon, After Wednesday, I have nothing else major due until take home finals start getting handed out. And then once I'm done, I'm done with SCCC forever. I could not be happier, honestly. Cody is amazing, school is so close to being done, and its almost summer. Warped tour is going to be great, and I'm so hoping I can catch This is Hardcore and spend three days alone with Cody. But even through all this good coming up, I still can't help but want to scream.

I don't understand why public speaking still scares me so much. I'm friends with a lot of the people in this class and have comfortably sat with them until the class started, but for some reason I know I'll have a problem falling asleep tonight because I am dreading doing my oral presentation tomorrow (night, mind you). I would think by now I would have overcome this stupid phobia; I'm glad at least I volunteered to go pretty early in the list so I won't stress for too long.